Today is the first time I’ve posted one of my card meditations in a while. I’ve been thinking about it for some time, but it just didn’t feel right for some reason. Today, however, I pulled a card and the card itself made me realize it was time to get back to these posts.
The card that I pulled today is the Five of Pentacles from the Prismatic Tarot. This deck is stunning. From its art style, to the use of color, to the mix of modern and traditional imagery, to the diversity represented within the images. This card really hit me, thought, when I considered it and began to put together the message that I drew from it.
You see, the Five of Pentacles is always a card of isolation, a card of insecurity, of financial worry, or fear. It’s a card, though, that offers a glimmer of hope as well, but that hope is entirely up to you. If you look at the image you’ll notice a man who looks rather banged up. His clothing is patched, his head is bandaged, his hair is matted. Looking at his face it seems to me that he is a mixture of angry, sad, and resentful. Angry at the circumstances that led him to where he is. Sad about the fact that he is, in fact, in the position he is in. Resentful of a system and world that has failed him and allowed him to fall to a place he certainly never expected to be in. No one ever plans to be in a place of loss. This man has found himself in a place where he has lost everything that he ever held dear. He finds himself in a cycle of loss. It seems that no matter what he tries he is stuck where he is and simply cannot break the cycle.
What’s important to note here, though, is that his eyes are cut towards his back. He is looking behind him rather than forward when trying to find a solution for breaking free fro his cycle of destruction. Looking to what has failed will result in nothing more than the same failures time and time again. This is a pattern that so many of us find ourselves in when we are in a place of loss. We often feel the same mix of emotions that the man in the card feels and, like him, we keep replaying our failures over and over and over, and thus keep redoing them as well, just in slightly different scenarios.
So, now that I’ve been incredibly bleak, where is that hope that I was talking about in this card? Well, it’s actually the single largest element of the image! It’s the stained glass window behind him. It’s a source of light. It’s a source of beauty. It’s a source of help and health. You see, the solution the man is looking for is right behind him. If he would stop looking at his past and start looking at the world around him right now in this moment he would see the solution in front of him. He is currently isolated, lonely, and replaying all of the negative emotions he is feeling when what he needs to be doing is pulling himself out of isolation and looking at the solutions that are right in front of him. Does this mean that he is the author of his own misery? No, absolutely not. It does mean, however, that he has the power to break the cycle he finds himself stuck in. It won’t be easy and it will require persistently choosing to break the cycle, but it is possible.
No one can thrive alone. Yet, we have built a society where that’s what people seem to expect. We are social creatures. If you find yourself in this isolated place, make a point to get yourself out. Even if it’s uncomfortable, it’s needed. Honestly, especially if it’s uncomfortable it’s needed. While you’re in this process of getting yourself out of isolation you will also need to be careful that you are not looking back at past failures. You know what these are. Replaying them over and over and over won’t help you to understand them more. It won’t make you feel better. It certainly won’t help you move forward. It’s time to stop looking at these things. Let them be what they are. You cannot change what was. You can, however, change what is and what will be. Turn your eyes forward. When opportunity presents itself be careful to not immediately go back to a past reason this new one won’t work. Instead, let it be something new and exciting and beautiful! Use it as an opportunity to learn and grow. Even if it’s not what you would ideally want, it can be something used to bring you to new and beautiful places.
Break your cycle of poverty, loss, and sorrow. Look forward and let what’s past be past. Move into the light of the window shining right beside you. Hope for the future rather than resent the past. You’re worth it.
Love and light,